Circle Lenses! Soon, soon...

They're Coming!

Heeey! So, I'm on the waiting end of many packages.

I sadly confessed of spending too much moolah and compulsively buying lots of stuff online. If you want all that update, you can find the post here.

Sigh.

Oh well! I'm done with that! No more spending. Now I just get to be excited about the coming stuff!

I ordered both lenses from Circlelens.net:

I ordered Neo Vision Dali Brown Black

And I also ordered Vassen Super Size Hyper Barbie Brown

Eeks! I'm so excited! I have dark blue eyes so there is a risk that I'll look strange. But! I have naturally large pupils, so I'm hoooooping it will turn out alright. (*゜―゜)

I'll be posting a video when I receive them, yu guise. （＾ω＾）♡

Cheers

-Kat

On the Lighter Side: Look How Pretty I am!

Pictures of my Pretty Progress

I decided to post some pictures of me in my new official everyday makeup and hair for evidence that I am trying to do what I said I would.

Here is a picture of my old makeup routine

I used eyeliner, mascara and foundation. That's it! I found that the cat-eye look just didn't really match my style very well. I was growing out my bangs at the time also...

BUT! Then came a night when I just couldn't handle the awkward length my bangs were at and --as has happened many a time in my life-- 

I cut them.　Σ(゜д　゜|||)

"I cut my hair!"

The bangs style I was looking for is similar to this kind of a look.

Note: Just the bangs, not the whole hairstyle.

For my base face makeup now I'm using a primer (Sephora Luminous Foundation Primer) and a foundation (Shiseido The Makeup) and a setting powder (Sephora brand again) and blush (in these photos Bare Minerals). This is the first time I've ever had my foundation look so flawless and last so long. (＝゜ω゜)ノ

Sorry for the under eye bags, yu guise. ( < x > ||) 

As I had posted about, my sleep has been less than it usually is.

I am also wearing false eyelashes on both my top and bottom. I have been trying to achieve a big eye look and had tried a few times to wear a look similar to a simple Gyaru-style, but it didn't quite work out. That is, until I saw this picture of Kyari Pamyu Pamyu:

"Ah", I thought, "I've been approaching the 'big eye' makeup the wrong way!" I had been trying to enlarge the look of my eyes by making the sides of my eyes look bigger. This requires more makeup than I'm used to and I just made my eyes look weird and overdone. If I try to make my eyes look bigger by making them look taller, though, I could achieve something pretty close to my objective! 

My eye now consists of eyelashes on top with some black eyeliner over the middle top of the lid near the lashes for emphasis. Then I line the inside of my eye on the bottom lid with more eyeliner from the outer corner to a little less than half way, and put on a short eyelash near the lined part. I use light pink shiny eyeshadow all the way under my eye and emphasize the middle with a little shiny white eyeshadow and blend.

I think it has worked out pretty well, but I'll probably continue tinkering with it.

Oh yeah, check out my weave〜！

キラキラ

Ehehehe! So loooong! Well, actually my clip ins aren't much longer than my own hair. They add probably like 3 or 4 inches but quite a bit of volume and help to even out my hairstyle.

So that's it for now. I'll post some reviews of the products I'm using...maybe.

Cheers

-Kat

チュ〜〜

Oh Crapotatos

Dealing with Emotions

Right. "Dealing" with them. I don't need to deal with my emotions. They'll just go away if I ignore them long enough.. Right?

Not really, I find out again and a-freaking-gain. No. What emotions do when they aren't dealt with is they mess up your life. 

Say you are feeling sad. But you don't want to sit down and explore the sadness, so you just ignore it and focus on something else. Well, get ready for chaos, because you've just made a mistake. Noooooo, you can't just ignore it! What's wrong with bottling things up? You find a way to express it in some other way, that's what's wrong with it. "Bottling it up" doesn't actually exist. Maybe there is a slight delay or it isn't so noticeable, but emotions are ALWAYS expressed one way or another.

Take my case for example. I've told you about how I will be going to Japan to study, でしょうね?　Yes, well, I forgot to mention how terrified I am of it.

It has been a dream of mine to study in Japan for over 5 years. But right now I have my amazing fiancee, my two lovely cats, and I-- for the forst time in a long long time-- have really good support from my family. This is the most emotionally secure and safe I can remember being in my life. I don't want to go. But I'm applying. But I don't want to go. But I've told all my friends and family members. BUT I DON'T WANT TO GO. So, instead of talking about it and crying my eyes out as I should have done to find some sense of relief, I spent over $600 dollars on all sorts of things. I have three Japanese textbooks, a few sets of fake eyelashes, and three sets of circle lenses coming to me in the mail in the next few weeks. I have bought makeup, hair extensions, and food and coffees. I have been buying and downloading apps and music. My rationale was that "I will pay it off when I get my financial aid! Lalalalala~!♪ ♪"


But that of course is not the point. I also was staying up very late at night. Sometimes until three or four in the morning. I wasn't listening to my stress indicators. My typing and wallet-pulling-out little fingers were saying something small that I chose not to listen to. "You are really upset about something!", they cried whilst purchasing white eyeliner, "For goodness' sake do something, please!" But I didn't.

I kept spending until last night when, at four in the morning, I asked myself why I was awake so late. The answer was very clear. Fiancee is probably mad at me. I called him at work and told him all about it. Lying to someone who is so kind to you is really awful, but owning up to those lies feels worse and somehow good at the same time.

No more spending until I get my financial aid wherein I will first and foremost pay off and close out my credit card account.

-Kat

Songs from a Period Mix CD

Bleeding Love

If you have ever seen the movie No Strings Attached, you'll probably remember the scene where Natalie Portman's character, Emma, is driving, crying, and singing while eating a couple boxes of donut holes, complete with powdered sugar smeared across her chin.

Here's a photo I snagged off of Netflix

The moral of the story:
I will probably never again be able to take Leona Lewis' Bleeding Love seriously ever again in the entirety of my life.

Cheers
-Kat

Why Did I Start This Blog Anyway? ( Part 2: The Pretty Project)

♡The Pretty Project♡

The reason I started this blog was to document my research and trials and errors in becoming pretty.

The Pretty Project is for me to boost my confidence by investing time and energy into my looks and achieving good results.

As I said in Part 1, I am doing Intuitive Eating. I am hoping to lose weight in doing this, but in order to achieve any weight loss, I have to stop thinking about food. And by "food" I mean weight, clothing size, calories, meal planning, and foods. Because when I'm obsessed, I am stressed, and I am eating to cope with it.

So the Pretty Project is my way of focusing on something else.

I will be wearing these things most days:

• Hair Extensions
• False Eyelashes
• Full Foundation
• Eyeliner
• Eyeshadow

I will also be posting pictures of my progress and products I'm using and how, etcetera.

Ciao Fellow Bellas

-Kat

Why Did I Start This Blog Anyway? (Part 1)

Well, I'll Tell You!

I have made an early New Year's resolution to myself to get prettier.

Yeah, everyone is pretty. Yes, beauty is second to intelligence.

But! Beauty, or more specifically effort put forth towards achieving prettiness, can boost confidence!

The first thing on my list is to lose weight. And it is this exact goal which has prompted me to start this prettiness-escapade. I am a gal who has suffered from b.e.d. (binge eating disorder) and emotional eating for most of my life, intermittently with losing a whole bunch of weight by being on a diet.

I recently started vlogging with this brand new diet idea: I was going t count calories and plan my meals the day before and weigh myself everyday and be oh-so-good and become the skinniest damn girlie this world has seen!

Well, two weeks in and over four major binges later, I was disgusted with myself and downtrodden. What do you do when the thing that helps you is hurting you? You ask "why". And the answer is that I was dieting. Period. The answer is that I have been dieting and hating myself and making up rules around food and eating and weight to the point that I didn't even like eating anymore. I hated it.

Now I'm doing Intuitive Eating. I have been doing it for a little over a week now. I don't think I have lost any weight, but I do know that I have calmed down a lot! I am in a phase of disarming foods though exposure; a.k.a. eating foods I have told myself I wasn't allowed to because of different reasons ("eat something healthier", "If you start eating that you'll never stop, so don't start", etcetera). 

I like the calmness that has been coming on. I'm going to continue. I haven't lost any weight yet, as I said, but I haven't gained any either. In fact, I think my legs look pretty good recently. I'll maybe do a post on Intuitive Eating at some point when I have more experience under my belt.

Hold the banana phone! There was a tangent in there! I'm going to reign that in and explaaaaaiiiiin the original Pretty Project here. "Pretty Project". I rather like that. ( *o u o *)
Part Two coming up!

Norris and Presley Were Jerks

Hello Everyboooody!

I didn't ask before, but how was Christmas for you guys?

Mine was pretty nice.

I went with the fiancee to his Aunt and Uncle's house for dinner. We chatted it up and ate his Aunt's amaaaaazing food. Mmm.

But then there was a person there who made things interesting.

His name is Bill. He is a martial arts teacher in his 70's, and is a pretty spry guy. Well, Bill was hilarious. But the problem is that I felt he was flirting with me (a 22-year-old engaged young lady) the entire dinner. Eeks!

Let me tell you about Bill's experiences in the world. This guy has apparently fought with Elvis Presley and Chuck Norris. And I believe him. What I do not believe is his image of these two famous people.

Bill: "And that was the day I ended up meeting Elvis!"
Me: "Oh. Wasn't Elvis Presley sort of a jerky guy?"
Bill: "Oh, no no no, Sweetheart!"--touches my shoulder--"He was such a gentleman!"

[goes on to talk about how Elvis "accidentally" kicked him in the groin three times over in a warm up session at a martial arts studio whilst touching my shoulder five more times]

Elvis = Satan?

Bill: "Do you happen to know who Chuck Norris is?"

Me: "Haha! Well, yeah. And I also know, truly, that he is a Republican jerk."

Bill: "Nooo! Darlin' let me tell you about how nice this guy is."

Chuck Norris not only lit a box Bill was in on the set of Walker Texas Ranger on fire, but he also was a total child about some match their respective students had and was super duper prideful and.. well, jerky. In addition, Norris once invited his friends to dinner at Beni-Freaking-Hana's and then--oopsie dasies!-- forgot his wallet. Also, he likes dogs. I mean, really, I am not persuaded to like Norris by these accounts with him. 

I lost track of the shoulder touches, by the way. But, there were a lot.

Anywho, that was my Christmas: getting flirted with by an old man who has an apparently difficult time giving credit where it is due.

-Kat

（；￣ェ￣）。。。

Oh My Goodness

Am I starting another blog? "Yes". "Yes" is the answer to that question. 

So, hi. ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

名前はバートン・キャサリンです。でも、「キャット」と読んで下さい♡このブログhs冬休みで作ってるのに、私は学期が始める時に続いて書けるかなねー

Woah, sorry. I guess I should tell you guys that this blog is being made by a Japanese-loving university student. I may be probe to bouts of writing in the Nihongo. 

In English, my name is Katherine Barton. But pease call me by my nickname "Kat". I don't make any promises to myself or others if I will keep this up since I'm starting it during my Winter break.

Lets get to know each other anyway, though, shall we?

My name, as I said, is Kat. I am also a cat-lover ("...and I love to run.. Oh no I'm  thinking about cat again..")

I have been in love with learning the Japanese language for over five years now. But my Japanese is "madamada". I will be going to Japan for a year (hopefully a full year!) to study abroad. 

Retsu ribyuu!

My name is "Kat". 

It sounds like "cat", which is also something that I adore. 

Look! It's a cat! In a box! Hahaha! It's so funny because its also cute!!

I also loooove the Japanese language and culture!

Look another cat! But this one is a Japanese cat. A combination of two of my favorite things in one picture! Needless to say, I really like this picture. P.s. if you don't know who this kitty-mc-meowzers is you may need to increase the level of internetting you have been doing. 

So there you have it!! That's me in a crazy-cat-lady-in-about-twenty-years nutshell. 

"Is there anything else you're going to talk about"you ask? Why, yes! But I'm sleepy. 

I'll talktalk more tomorrowtomorrow. 

Goodnight

-Kat